If this is real life, then somebody will bring me a sweater!

Ugh, so this past weekend was just ridiculous. I am not even going to talk about it in detail here, I am just going to say it was literally unbelievable. I remember texting my friend Megan saying how it was okay, because I was with a really safe group of people, and I stand by that 100%. Everyone was so incredible and nice and not judgmental at all, and we had such a blast. Saturday was dinner and chillin' at Kitty's house, and Sunday was the beach and Surf Taco for lunch.

These pictures are so disgusting, but they hold so many great memories. And I just cannot get over how nice everyone was - listening to all my rants, bringing me a billion glasses of water (John commenting on how Ariel and I are the most hydrated people on the plant) Ryan for finding me something similar to a sweater, and Ariel for not judging my grossness. Ha ha.

This picture is not gross at all. In fact its kind of wonderful. And those two girls are kind of wonderful.

Family Outtings

Today when I woke up, I had totally different plans for today. I was planning on running, cleaning, going to the farmers market, looking into buying a bike and possibly stopping at the eye doctor. Well then my mom decided it would be nice if we all went on a little adventure since I wasn't working and she didn't have anything to do for the day. I really didn't want to go, but I felt bad saying no, so I said yes. I am honestly really glad I went though. It was a nice day. We drove into the city and spent forever looking for a spot. Once we finally found one, we went walking through Central Park looking for the Zoo. On our hunt for the Zoo, we walked past this boat club or something (?) where you could rent a canoe for 1 hour for only $12. This is so unlike my mom - she is all about the mall and Louie Vuitton bags, but she agreed to go canoeing! We had trouble getting it going, but once we got the hang of it, it was so nice and fun! When our hour was up we continued our hunt for the Zoo, ate some food and checked out the animals. On our way home we had some car issues, but overall it was a really lovely day. Not at all what I had planned and my room is still a mess, but I had a really nice time. 

On a side note, check out my hair! Ugh, every day is a constant struggle with my hair, but I just keep reminding myself of how healthy it is now and how freaking awesome my curls are going to be once my hair gets longer. But seriously - this sucks. My brother always tells me I look like Harry Potter. I don't see the resemblance. 

Cruising on the highway with my friends

This past week and a half has been absolutely nuts! I decided to wait until I got home to write about it all, and let me tell you - I am glad to be home. It was incredible and exciting to be a sort of "nomad" for a while, but the bags under my eyes are a testament to the fact that it is also super exhausing. Anyways, heres what I have been up to:

Sunday July 14th - Wednesday July 18th : Atlantic City/Wildwood

My mom is seriously the most impulsive person in the plant and she is awful with planning anything. She just wakes up and decides she wants to go somewhere, and the rest of us must follow. Well on Sunday, I woke up and my mom told me to pack a bag because we were going down the shore. I had a nice time (despite the fact that my mom got on my nerves), I was able to start a super cool plarn project, and I got to work on my tan! (; Oh yeah, and I discovered the deliciousness that is Wawa iced coffee!

July 19th - July 23rd : Firefly Music Festival

On Thursday my friend Faline picked me up and we had a mini roadtrip to Delaware for Firefly Music Festival. The Festival didn't start till Friday, so on Thursday we checked in to our hotel, ordered pizza and layed in bed watching friends. It was super fun. Friday - Sunday we hung out at the festival. I realized that I actually was quite unfamiliar with the line up which was a bit disappointing, but I discovered a few cool bands which was nice! The crowds for the bands were really great, but we also did a lot of lounging in the grass, which was equally as lovely. Two bands I discovered because of Firefly that I am now hooked on are Walk the Moon and GROUPLOVE. Check em out!

July 23rd - July 24th : Alex's Birthday Party/Nursing Orientation

We headed back to Jersey on Monday and I didn't even get a chance to go home! I went straight to Amandas new house in New Brunswick for a birthday party she was throwing for her boyfriend Alex. I seriously had such a good time with Amanda - she's so much fun! I helped her prepare for the party and then her and I joined in the festivities. A lot of drama went down that night, like Amandas friend Nick punching some kid in the face over a Herseys chocolate bar?! Ha ha. Super random. Either way, despite the drama it was a pretty good night. The only downfall was the fact that I didn't fall asleep till past 5:30 am! I then woke up at 7:30am that morning for nursing orientation which I have been soo excited for! We learned about preparation for clinicals junior year, and then we met with advisors to fix our schedules and add nursing classes. Doing that made this whole thing so much more real!

Partying in the USA

The past three days have seriously been so incredible, and I feel so grateful to be fortunate enough to have such good experiences! My three-days-of-fun started off on Tuesday. I took the train into New Brunswick where Faline picked me up. We picked up Ariel, drove to Faline's, ate Wawa sandwiches, watched United States of Tara, enjoyed a few cocktails and had a sleepover. On Wednesday we woke up and headed over to out friend Kitty's house for her 4th of July BBQ. It was so incredible to see everyone from school! We played a bunch of games, went slipping and sliding, had lots of conversations, drank way too much, ate lots of food, and stayed up way too late. It was seriously the perfect 4th of July. Then on Thursday (today) we all magically woke up at 6:30 a.fucking.m. after going to be at like 2 or 3 or maybe it was 4? Either way, we woke up way too early. We ate some breakfast and then headed to the beach. The water was lovely and the company was lovely and the sun was just, well, lovely! After the beach, we headed to this ice cream shop that our friend John recommended, and thats how we ended our three-days-of fun. It was such a great three days and I am sososo happy. Since I was so busy having a good time, I didn't really take any pictures. Often, I feel like its more important to enjoy the experience than try and capture it. But here are the few pictures I did take:

I'm just a dreamer

So there has been a lot of talk on this blog of me trying to be happy on my own. Well yesterday I did something on my own I cannot even describe how happy I felt afterwards. A few months ago I bought tickets to see the Tallest Man on Earth. I kept forgetting that I had the tickets, but yesterday was the day. I didn't even really wanna go anymore, but I wasn't going to waste good seats (4th row from the front). So I put on my favorite dress and some really pretty earrings and I went, and I had such a wonderful time! The opening band was so incredible, and so was Kristian! For the very last song, his wife came out and sang with him. They were too freaking cute. He just stared at her the entire time. I was dying, but also pretty freaking jealous! Ugh, I left feeling so inspired and just really good about life. I was inspired to learn some music and to go to more things on my own and to dress up more often and just in so many ways! Since I had such a good time and loved the music so much, I decided to buy some CDs. They were only $10 each, so I bought 3. One of the opening band, Strand of Oaks, and two of the Tallest Man on Earth. I wound up spending all my money on music and had to pay for the bus partially in quarters. But it was so worth it! Kristian is seriously SO beautiful; one of the prettiest boys I have ever seen in my whole life; but unfortunately my camera really sucks, so the best picture I got of him was of his back. I am going to look into investing in a new camera soon. 

Strawberry Fields Forever

I just found these pictures on my camera and realized I forgot to post them. They aren't that great because like I said, I have not been taking pictures these days, but I will post them anyways! A few weeks ago I went to visit my friends from college in their lovely little town called East Brunswick. It was such a nice change of scenery and pace and people and pretty much everything. They're really great people! While I was there we ate some food, watched this incredible show called United States of Tara and went Strawberry picking! We also got these incredible sandwiches from Wawa. It was a really good time. These are the pictures from our strawberry picking adventures. Might I add the the strawberries we got were absolutely delicious!

Freelance Whales Show

Last weekend my friend Michelle and I went to a lovely little concert in the city. I didn't even know any of the bands playing, but I am always down to go to a show, and so when Michelle asked me I did a little schedule re-arranging and said yes! The band we went to see was Freelance Whales. I don't remember the name of the first opening band, but the second one, Lucius, was absolutely incredible! Freelance Whales were also really really good. It was such a fun experience and it was exciting because it was sort of a last minute plan. Michelle happened to get offered the tickets through a girl on Tumblr. After the show, we went to this 24/7 Polish(?) restaurant that I can never remember the name of. As you can see, I have a terrible memory. Anyways, here are some pictures from the day, all from Michelle. I don't know what my problem is but I have been a weirdo about taking pictures lately. I still love taking pictures, I have just been super self conscious because I haven't taken any in a while. 

Fresh Start

So I am beginning to feel like I am falling back into a bit of a slump again, but I can't allow this to happen. I want so badly to just have a fresh start. I don't even know what that means, but I just have this really strong desire to start with a clean plate, a blank canvas. So I decided tomorrow is going to be my blank canvas. I can do whatever I want with my life starting tomorrow. If I want it to happen, I can make it happen because this is my life and I am in control. If I want to paint my world with bright shades of purples and oranges, I will. 

I cleaned my room, I did my laundry, I shaved, I organized all my stuff, I moisturized my skin and my hair, I cleaned out my e-mails. I am ready for this. Everything is in order for me to do whatever I want. I just feel like I have all of this desire and passion and energy in me, and I want to let it out. My passion used to be channeled into loving Fernando, but we no longer have that, which means I need to find new outlets. Everyday day; no, every second is a new second with which I can do whatever I want. Every second is my blank canvas. I want to get thin, I want to make art and music, I want to fall in love with things other than boys, I want to be filled with incredible burning joy and I want to share that feeling with everyone I meet once I find it. This is my Adventure to find Happiness.