Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Today, in one word, was draining. I am exhausted in all senses of the word. Emotionally, physically and mentally. Luckily I have tomorrow off to recharge. I have work in the morning, but after that I am just going to take the day off to catch up on some school work, and relax. Here is just a little list of why I am so tired today:
* I got back to my dorm, and decided to do some laundry (which I have yet to put away). As I was trying to keep my self busy while my laundry did its thing, I began to feel like I couldn't breathe. It was both a litteral and metaphorical feeling of being suffocated if that makes sense. It was literally hard to breath, but I also just felt so consumed by my daily grind. So I decided to go for a walk and shoot a few frames on my film camera which usually gets neglected. This helped to recenter me a bit.
* Doing work and dinner with my friends was nice, but even during that, I felt pretty out of it.
* I was really excited to go rock climbing with Max, but my off-ness just continued on the rock wall. I was struggling a lot with the routes and I was going up so slowly. I know Max really well, and so as I was climbing, I just knew that he wanted to be climbing and I felt the unfairness in how long I was taking. After we talked about it (we had an intense conversation about our relationship as rock climbing partners) and so that helped.
* Not to mention that I am dumb. And so while all of this was going on, I was anticipating the arrival of a stupid text message. Technology really sucks sometimes.
But for reals - look at how pretty dem shoes are.