Do you ever feel like the internet is the loneliest place in the world? Really, if you think about it, it is. For example, right now I am sitting on my bed in my empty room, blogging to no one. Prior to this, I was laying in my bed in my empty room watching a TV show about a bunch of girls who live in the city and are living there lives. Was I living my life while watching the show? No. And yet despite the fact that I was not living at all while watching that show, I got this incredible sense of fulfillment as I watched these girls live there lives. I can't explain it very well, but it makes me feel horrible. I sit here online for
hours and for those hours I live through other people. I look at beautiful photos of other peoples lives, I feel their happiness when I look at their two kids and I feel their pain when I read about their divorce (Michelle, you know exactly what I am referring to when I say that. Ha ha), and yet these things do absa-fucking-lutely nothing to better my life. And I find it so frustrating. Last night, rather than to hang out with my friend Maria, I chose to sit home alone and watch Pretty Little Liars and Teen Mom. Seriously? What the major fuck. I know this is a silly rant, but its something I think about all the time and yet I do nothing to change it. Its like I am so
hooked. I am not living at all (for those few hours), and yet I am loving it. I love admiring other peoples lives. Well what the heck about my life?! I sit on my fitness pal and read about other peoples weight loss successes. Why am I not creating my own weight loss success?
<end of rant> The point is, its really freaking stupid. And so I decided that for one week, I am not going to watch TV
or go online. I don't give a shit how desperate I get. Seriously - what the heck did people do before all this mindless shit existed?! Well - I am going to find out! I am also going to try and use my cellphone as little as possible. Lets be real - in this day and age you simply cannot survive without a cellphone and I'd be spiting myself by giving that up. But I am going to
call people rather than text. Who does that anymore?! So yeah, and I suppose I'll blog about it when the week is up. Or maybe I'll just never go on the internet again. Who knows.
However, before my end of internet bonanza begins, I need to finish all the episodes of the HBO tv show Girls. I seriously hate myself. Ha ha (; Also, incase you're wondering, the photos above are from a video my friends and I made for our current issues class about how impersonal social interactions are these days because of the media. You can watch it
here.
